and the steep gets deeper

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam atas junjungan baginda .

every rose has its thorn
jst like every night has its dawn
jst like every cowboy sing his sad sad song
every rose has its thorn

i hear ths song these days and realize how close it is in my heart . and i cant help but to thnk of how well it rflects lives . ermm i'm jst saying tht everyone's not perfect and never would be so we have to learn how to give and take . hehe .

sabar . a word tht is easy to pronounce but hard to comprehend . you never know the level of patience tht you have until you face wht you cannot handle . and yeah , you never know wht you cnt handle bcause you lose yourself first by then . thts when you act bfore thnking and thus regreting it later . so , sabar sblum buat ap2 . i'm nt the most patient prson out there and i have to tell tht i'm strggling hard in becoming one whch obviously not . hehe . if smthng rage you up , take few deep breath bfore throwing out your opinion . i thnk tht helps alot . ngehehe . i read ths smwhere in book and it says , sabar dalam mencari kelebihan diri . i read ths exactly when i had hard time and wthout doubt , i found solace in it . alhamdulillah , Allah gives His guidance to me at tht time and tenacity is wht i found .

you could grief when rose has thorn or you could rejoice when thorn has rose so , always see the glass half full . whch then leads to a happy life :)

shriveled up

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam ke atas baginda rasulullah .

obviously , its about spm result . alhamdulillah , thnk Allah for all . yestrday , lst nght actually , i had ths weird dream . dreaming in a dream . sure korang prnh pnye . hehe . i dreamnt for about 5 dffrent dreams . bizzare eh . for each dreams , dffrent people got strgt a's . haha . none of them was me . rase mcm dejavu plk . haha . bcause yes , apparently i'm not .

when i got to school , there's ths small crmony going on . and they told tht theres 24 strgt a's . phew , i'm glad actually bcause id hear rumors going all around saying no strgt a+ . snce lst year our school had 4 strght a+ stdents , no doubt ths year the expectation would be hgher . and since we cant beat tht i guess it's cool that we outnumbered the strgt a students . hoho . then in mddle of the speech , my mom dragged me out of hall and wth ths cncern look on her face , she told me tht i'm not one of the 24 stdents . i'm shockd but i cant frget the look tht she had on her face . i felt bad actually bcause i was not as sad as she expcted me to be . heh . i had giggle in my heart . seriously . yeah i'm cool hearing that but its inevitable that i felt sad . in fact , extremely devastated but then , life must go on . its jst not good if i cry when my friend cried on my shoulder . that would look bad . isnt it ?

so thniah buat 24 pelajar yg mndpat smua a . for the boys , u rock . haha . i salute asship , no kidding . and the girls too . korang mmg terbaik la . syuk tkah fzah , i expected u tht much so , not sprised actually . haha . qilah and salma and farhah , debate buddy , cngratulations . table buddy , haha , engku and pkah , u too . kmah asma mira fini fatin aisyh , u guys too . i'm sooo hppy that all of us got no less than 8a's . all my classmates and schoolmates , u're the best . trima ksih krna mmbuatkan cg kita trsnyum .

i got 9a+ , 1a physics and 1b+ for arabic . i'm kind of not expecting tht since i found tht that test was the best answer that i could give . i mean in arabic test . thats the best sbb sblum ne mmg rse perit jwb ba . ths one was not as bad as bfore but yeah , myb thts not good enough . all in all , alhamdulillah . no regrets . i jst feel bad for the teachers and ummi and abah . they count on me and i feel like i let evrybody down . sorry and sorry espcially to ustz khairul . myb i'm nt that good student of yours but i'm glad to have all of you as my teachers . thank you sooo much . ummi ngn abah , maaf sbb x boleh naik pntas sama2 . hihi . i know you guys are proud of me so i'm learning to do so too . ummi abah tnggu angh alah abang nisa ngn hasif la nk naik pntas plk . hoho .

i'm hppy for evryone ! your hppiness makes me happy too .

sucking things around

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam ke atas nabi muhammad saw . may all of us be blessed .

i've been busy these days helping my aunt pcking those small thngy for my cousins wedding . andd , last friday we went to jerantut for the wedding . and went back the next day . buttt , my sster and i went to kl wth my aunt . kunun2 nk beli cklat utk ltk dlm goody bag tu sbb tkot x ckup . konon laa . smpai sane around 5++pm . tht nght pegi tgk movie . cite the lorax . yg sadisnye , i went there wearing tracksuit . pulok tu paka lipa jepung . sadis2 . despite tht , tht movie is so cute . the cartoon is nicely done and conveys vivid lessons . the next morning , we went for breakfast kt sunway . tgh layan spgeti tu , perut buat hal pulakk . sah2 tndas kt sane tndas yg style air pancut tu soo , fham2 laa . buat derk jela . then , pegi silau2 org ice skate . the initial plan was to go ice skating but then , we had full meal jst bfore and seeing those bunch of people , x pe jela . bsides , kteorg sme bkn nye pndai . haha . last2 , tgk org je , mark org and eventually talked on how they skate . mcm stalk jgk la . lps tu , we went to the chocolate fctory, beryl's chocolate wonderland but in no vain bcause it's closed . then off we went to beryl's chocolate kingdom . survey2 tgk hrge mhal gile cmpare dgn beli kt kilang . x beli ap2 pn . another chocolate outlet there and as we went checkng it out , the price are jst about the same as bfore so , the main purpose of going to kl is up to nthing . sbb asal2 kn nk beli cklat . hoho . around 5pm , we went back to trg and sampai midnight .

on monday , which was today , i had test for my driving lisence . gile kot . jumaat ngn sbtu ad kt jerantut . sbtu ngn ahad ad kt kl . isnin ad kt trg . Alhamdulilah , lulus test . semuanya dgn izin Allah sbb as long as i can see , it was merely pure solid luck . and big thnks to those big hearted jpjs and teachers .

these few days , i noticed tht
1 . i have severe motion sickness
2 . i have inferiority and self-esteem that hit bottom ground ( still working on this one )
p/s : result dh dekat sgt dh . wishing all spm boarders the best of luck and nice sleep . pesanan utk dri sndri jgk . toing2