pengikut tegar . hihi

assalamualaikum . salam dan selawat atas rasulullah .
i'd like to share my MARA essay . hihi . gedik melampau .

 Born to be a doctor . I can see that in me and I strongly believe  I am one of them . My name is Tengku Mardhiah Binti Tengku Nazmi , first daughter of Tengku Nazmi Bin Tengku Sulaiman and Nor Akma Binti Mohd Amin . Born in 9th July 1994 . I have 5 other siblings and one of them is a new born . Both my parents are working , my father is a radiographer whereas my mother is a teacher .

  Back then , I received my early education at Sekolah Kebangsaan Tok Jiring and thank God , i got 5As in UPSR . I was actively participating in martial art of Taekwondo at that time that i managed to represent the state of Terengganu . I was nurtured with determination and sense of responsibility all the way through . In 2007 , I continued my study at Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Agama Tok Jiring from form 1 to form 5 . With the support of all the people around me , I got 9As in PMR which then led me to the science stream class . I found this special vibe when learning Biology and this triggered my instinct of becoming a doctor . I tried my very best in balancing my studies and my co-curricular activities . Debate parliamentary style was one of the co-academic activities that I joined and happily said , I learned a lot of things despite missing class . I discovered my inner qualities that I never had the chance to find before . Gratefully said , my self-confidence and self-esteem increased and I improved my general knowledge as much . My position as the vice-president of Ping Pong club and secretary of Girls Scout in my school definitely hone my leadership skill besides many other good quality to be possessed .

  I got 10As 1B (9A+ 1A 1B+) in SPM and that moment I knew that the chance for me to further my study in medicine is bright . I realized  that this was it ! I could still fight for my dream of becoming a doctor . It would be a great pleasure to receive scholarship from MARA to further my study . I plan to study in Ireland as that country is famous for the born of great doctors . In fact , I have an aunt who studied there before and is now has her own clinic . I am inspired mostly by her and not to mention , my father . I want to be specialised in orthopedics because of him since his work involves in that branch . More than that , i enjoy studying about human anatomy . Other than that , I also have the desire to further my study in Jordan . Besides studying medicine , I can also  improve my Arabic language knowledge since I got B for that subject . The main reason of why I’d like to further my study abroad is because I want to get more experience of being out of place at first and adapting myself in it .

  When I get my degree , I will begin with working with the Ministry of Health . When things are going the way it should be , I’d like to further my study to get my Master and then Phd , specializing in orthopedics . My ultimate goal is to help people to live their lives in the healthiest way . I hope that I can be a doctor that grows . Learn new things as each day pass by . Perhaps going to be a lecturer so that I could give  back what  I was given . Instead of growing alone , it would be nice to help other people grow .

p/s : esei ini dbuat in 2 hours thnks to syuk kimah and fizah for the indirect guideline . thnks alot . kalu deadline lmbat lg sumpah x siap lg esei ne . haha

and the steep gets deeper

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam atas junjungan baginda .

every rose has its thorn
jst like every night has its dawn
jst like every cowboy sing his sad sad song
every rose has its thorn

i hear ths song these days and realize how close it is in my heart . and i cant help but to thnk of how well it rflects lives . ermm i'm jst saying tht everyone's not perfect and never would be so we have to learn how to give and take . hehe .

sabar . a word tht is easy to pronounce but hard to comprehend . you never know the level of patience tht you have until you face wht you cannot handle . and yeah , you never know wht you cnt handle bcause you lose yourself first by then . thts when you act bfore thnking and thus regreting it later . so , sabar sblum buat ap2 . i'm nt the most patient prson out there and i have to tell tht i'm strggling hard in becoming one whch obviously not . hehe . if smthng rage you up , take few deep breath bfore throwing out your opinion . i thnk tht helps alot . ngehehe . i read ths smwhere in book and it says , sabar dalam mencari kelebihan diri . i read ths exactly when i had hard time and wthout doubt , i found solace in it . alhamdulillah , Allah gives His guidance to me at tht time and tenacity is wht i found .

you could grief when rose has thorn or you could rejoice when thorn has rose so , always see the glass half full . whch then leads to a happy life :)

shriveled up

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam ke atas baginda rasulullah .

obviously , its about spm result . alhamdulillah , thnk Allah for all . yestrday , lst nght actually , i had ths weird dream . dreaming in a dream . sure korang prnh pnye . hehe . i dreamnt for about 5 dffrent dreams . bizzare eh . for each dreams , dffrent people got strgt a's . haha . none of them was me . rase mcm dejavu plk . haha . bcause yes , apparently i'm not .

when i got to school , there's ths small crmony going on . and they told tht theres 24 strgt a's . phew , i'm glad actually bcause id hear rumors going all around saying no strgt a+ . snce lst year our school had 4 strght a+ stdents , no doubt ths year the expectation would be hgher . and since we cant beat tht i guess it's cool that we outnumbered the strgt a students . hoho . then in mddle of the speech , my mom dragged me out of hall and wth ths cncern look on her face , she told me tht i'm not one of the 24 stdents . i'm shockd but i cant frget the look tht she had on her face . i felt bad actually bcause i was not as sad as she expcted me to be . heh . i had giggle in my heart . seriously . yeah i'm cool hearing that but its inevitable that i felt sad . in fact , extremely devastated but then , life must go on . its jst not good if i cry when my friend cried on my shoulder . that would look bad . isnt it ?

so thniah buat 24 pelajar yg mndpat smua a . for the boys , u rock . haha . i salute asship , no kidding . and the girls too . korang mmg terbaik la . syuk tkah fzah , i expected u tht much so , not sprised actually . haha . qilah and salma and farhah , debate buddy , cngratulations . table buddy , haha , engku and pkah , u too . kmah asma mira fini fatin aisyh , u guys too . i'm sooo hppy that all of us got no less than 8a's . all my classmates and schoolmates , u're the best . trima ksih krna mmbuatkan cg kita trsnyum .

i got 9a+ , 1a physics and 1b+ for arabic . i'm kind of not expecting tht since i found tht that test was the best answer that i could give . i mean in arabic test . thats the best sbb sblum ne mmg rse perit jwb ba . ths one was not as bad as bfore but yeah , myb thts not good enough . all in all , alhamdulillah . no regrets . i jst feel bad for the teachers and ummi and abah . they count on me and i feel like i let evrybody down . sorry and sorry espcially to ustz khairul . myb i'm nt that good student of yours but i'm glad to have all of you as my teachers . thank you sooo much . ummi ngn abah , maaf sbb x boleh naik pntas sama2 . hihi . i know you guys are proud of me so i'm learning to do so too . ummi abah tnggu angh alah abang nisa ngn hasif la nk naik pntas plk . hoho .

i'm hppy for evryone ! your hppiness makes me happy too .