perfect suavity

assalamualaikum. selawat dan salam atas baginda Rasulullah SAW. alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

hrmm. what did i miss? i guess a lot. fyi, i had my final exam startng from the frst of oct until 10th of oct. the papers that had to be taken were calculus, statistics, language and literary appreciation, physics, chemistry and biology. and i got home by 12th of oct and still am home. have my frst sem result in my hand and alhamdulillah even if it might be not enough for me to further in medic, nonetheless, i'm grateful with it. my sem break was disastrous. all days went by completely in vain except for days when i had my muet test and days that i think of as worthwhile since i could meet my best friends though the family were not complete. hihi. anyhow, it's good to be back :)

my break is going to meet its end very soon. sooner than i thought. i did nothing during these time. neither my bio fore-study nor the research thingy. what makes it worse is that the moment i'll be going back to ukm, i heard that we're going to take a test. an english test. a british council placement test to be precise. i'm doomed. and the fact that i have to read the bio notes for that there will be a diagnostic test carried on is not making me feel any better than this. as for my research, i dont even want to think about it. or else my head's going to explode. i want to start doing something but at times like this, i dont know where to start. once i make my kickstart then i think i'm good to go. to be honest, i dont know what am i blabbing about right now. i just feel like posting something since its been a while. well, i want to share some of works that i'd done in my language class. the poster and concrete poem. all these were for my carry marks. hihi.

SPM boarders out there, wishing you all the best. i might be of no help but i want you to think of the main purpose of why did you study all these while. is it all gets down to SPM? NO! so ikhlaskan hati untuk blajar. i know this sounds very cliche but u need to think of the real reason, the purpose of studying. as much as u hate ths fact, u need to accept that the learning process is never ending. face it and lapangkan dada mencari dan menerima ilmu. the more we learn, the more we dont know. kalau hati ikhlas mencari ilmu, insyaAllah x akan hadir rasa berat dlm hati kita mase belajar. my prayers are always with you. special dedication for my sister. please believe in yourself.

tracing up the past

assalamualaikum. selawat dan salam atas baginda Rasulullah SAW. alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

its been like ages since then. i have nothing left in my head. i mean, this, rght now and then, awkward. haha. whatever it is, there's way too many things apparently happen these past few weeks. literally too many that i dont know where to start and what to start. heh. honestly i barely cope with life these days so, its like impossible for me to do something like this blog thngy and thats how this blog ends up like this. hihi.

this is bfore raya break. we went to jalan tar to buy goods for raya even that weekend was like helly busy with calculus' assignment. i really wish to wipe out the thought of having those work. huuu.

later, we had jmuan buka puasa ngn ank yatim at prmatapintar. prof bg duit raye kt bebudak tu and there we were goofing around as if there're nothing. x snonoh.

week after, we had buka puasa with the prime minister. dpt duit raye yg agak byk and agak banyak goodies dpt. alhamdulillah. lain2 no komen.

and then RAYA!! thnks for those yg dtg raye kt umah.

last week i went to jati diri camp at pd with all other ap students. terrific with no flaw if not that my arm and legs felt like breaking, tearing apart. serius letih. tp best espcially naik rakit. alhamdulillah all of us are safe and sound in one piece.

and today, farewell friend. hmmpph sigh. hihi. wan asma wan abd aziz, i wish u all the best and insyaAllah akn mndoakan apa yg terbaik utk kita semua. smoga kita smua berada di bawah kredaan-Nya. syuk tkah kmah fizah asma pini esyah mira and fatin, i wnt u to know that u are among those pillars of strength that Allah gives to me. i'm grateful to have these people in my life. alhamdulillah i am surrounded by people who loves me for who i am. eh yeke? i assume laa. families with unconditional love even bickers do happen and ap friends whom i spend most of my time with. uhibbukum fillah abadan abada insyAllah.

post ini teramatlah panjang. sorry for the inconvenience but this is the summation of what happened during my absence. i'm happy to say that i'm happy even it's hard. well, in 2 or 3 weeks i suppose, i'm going to sit for final exam. wish me luck and i'll wish yours. biiznillah, we all are going to nail it. insyaAllah.

p/s: sy sedang menanam cita2 sekarang and i wish to change to the better. doakan yg terbaik utk sy. doakan hati sy makin kuat and apa yg sy rasa skrg x akn berkurang. amin.

salam ramadan

assalamualaikum and selawat dan salam atas baginda Rasulullah SAW. alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

actually i have nothing to say but since it's been a while since i post something, i guess i'll just try to squeeze something out of my thoughts. ermm well i'm kind of a keen observer and as it is, i observe people a lot. i try to come out with my own explanation about the oddities shown by others. not that kind of oddities, i mean the good one. the one when they react differently with certain people. and anyhow, i find quite a bunch of new things that i think are totally absurd but somehow, do happen. so, i guess i'll just continue my observation and maybe i would come out with some kind of research about human's action. haha who knows? what's more interesting is, most of what i predicted from what i see is true and i'm more attached to doing this kind of thing. 

ohh and i finished my reading of the book, love in a headscarf, for quite some times. that book is about the author who tries to find her spouse through arranged marriage, which i think i might agree of doing it. in my opinion, it's not impossible to do such thing and if we really went through it, do you think any bad guy would agree of doing something like that? i mean to agree of arranged marriage. i presume not so, i guess once they agree of it, that means, he is a devoted person. as a human and as a son. it's not that i'm saying if someone is not up to arranged marriage, he or she is not devoted enough or something like that. this is mere opinion about those who's interested in this. hehe and i end up bluffing about nothing again. pardon me. in any way, i like the way she interprets her thought about the 9/11 incident because i think so too. i watched a lot of television programmes about this incident and read quite some books about it and i found, everyone's thoughts are different. no offence but i don't take accout of what i've seen in tv or read in books because sometimes, they're utter lies. i once asked people's opinion about al-Qaeda and such, and they responded by saying that we are blinded, confused too much by external informations so, i'll just try to figure out by my own. the way they see this incident are all different. some might think that it's all about terrorism and one might think of it as jihad. as for me, as a muslim, i'm ashamed of it. that is of course, if this incident really was caused by the jihad-ers but somehow, i don't think that it is so, yeah. whatever it is, islam is all about peace. the definition of islam itself is related to peace so, what's more can be said. there are many ways that we can convey our dakwa and terrorism is definitely not an option. if, if this really happened because of muslims, still, i don't believe that this is the right way of doing it and i would say no to it.

p/s : selamat menempuhi 10 malam terakhir ramadan. may this year be better than before. insyaAllah.