tracing up the past

assalamualaikum. selawat dan salam atas baginda Rasulullah SAW. alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

its been like ages since then. i have nothing left in my head. i mean, this, rght now and then, awkward. haha. whatever it is, there's way too many things apparently happen these past few weeks. literally too many that i dont know where to start and what to start. heh. honestly i barely cope with life these days so, its like impossible for me to do something like this blog thngy and thats how this blog ends up like this. hihi.

this is bfore raya break. we went to jalan tar to buy goods for raya even that weekend was like helly busy with calculus' assignment. i really wish to wipe out the thought of having those work. huuu.

later, we had jmuan buka puasa ngn ank yatim at prmatapintar. prof bg duit raye kt bebudak tu and there we were goofing around as if there're nothing. x snonoh.

week after, we had buka puasa with the prime minister. dpt duit raye yg agak byk and agak banyak goodies dpt. alhamdulillah. lain2 no komen.

and then RAYA!! thnks for those yg dtg raye kt umah.

last week i went to jati diri camp at pd with all other ap students. terrific with no flaw if not that my arm and legs felt like breaking, tearing apart. serius letih. tp best espcially naik rakit. alhamdulillah all of us are safe and sound in one piece.

and today, farewell friend. hmmpph sigh. hihi. wan asma wan abd aziz, i wish u all the best and insyaAllah akn mndoakan apa yg terbaik utk kita semua. smoga kita smua berada di bawah kredaan-Nya. syuk tkah kmah fizah asma pini esyah mira and fatin, i wnt u to know that u are among those pillars of strength that Allah gives to me. i'm grateful to have these people in my life. alhamdulillah i am surrounded by people who loves me for who i am. eh yeke? i assume laa. families with unconditional love even bickers do happen and ap friends whom i spend most of my time with. uhibbukum fillah abadan abada insyAllah.

post ini teramatlah panjang. sorry for the inconvenience but this is the summation of what happened during my absence. i'm happy to say that i'm happy even it's hard. well, in 2 or 3 weeks i suppose, i'm going to sit for final exam. wish me luck and i'll wish yours. biiznillah, we all are going to nail it. insyaAllah.

p/s: sy sedang menanam cita2 sekarang and i wish to change to the better. doakan yg terbaik utk sy. doakan hati sy makin kuat and apa yg sy rasa skrg x akn berkurang. amin.

salam ramadan

assalamualaikum and selawat dan salam atas baginda Rasulullah SAW. alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

actually i have nothing to say but since it's been a while since i post something, i guess i'll just try to squeeze something out of my thoughts. ermm well i'm kind of a keen observer and as it is, i observe people a lot. i try to come out with my own explanation about the oddities shown by others. not that kind of oddities, i mean the good one. the one when they react differently with certain people. and anyhow, i find quite a bunch of new things that i think are totally absurd but somehow, do happen. so, i guess i'll just continue my observation and maybe i would come out with some kind of research about human's action. haha who knows? what's more interesting is, most of what i predicted from what i see is true and i'm more attached to doing this kind of thing. 

ohh and i finished my reading of the book, love in a headscarf, for quite some times. that book is about the author who tries to find her spouse through arranged marriage, which i think i might agree of doing it. in my opinion, it's not impossible to do such thing and if we really went through it, do you think any bad guy would agree of doing something like that? i mean to agree of arranged marriage. i presume not so, i guess once they agree of it, that means, he is a devoted person. as a human and as a son. it's not that i'm saying if someone is not up to arranged marriage, he or she is not devoted enough or something like that. this is mere opinion about those who's interested in this. hehe and i end up bluffing about nothing again. pardon me. in any way, i like the way she interprets her thought about the 9/11 incident because i think so too. i watched a lot of television programmes about this incident and read quite some books about it and i found, everyone's thoughts are different. no offence but i don't take accout of what i've seen in tv or read in books because sometimes, they're utter lies. i once asked people's opinion about al-Qaeda and such, and they responded by saying that we are blinded, confused too much by external informations so, i'll just try to figure out by my own. the way they see this incident are all different. some might think that it's all about terrorism and one might think of it as jihad. as for me, as a muslim, i'm ashamed of it. that is of course, if this incident really was caused by the jihad-ers but somehow, i don't think that it is so, yeah. whatever it is, islam is all about peace. the definition of islam itself is related to peace so, what's more can be said. there are many ways that we can convey our dakwa and terrorism is definitely not an option. if, if this really happened because of muslims, still, i don't believe that this is the right way of doing it and i would say no to it.

p/s : selamat menempuhi 10 malam terakhir ramadan. may this year be better than before. insyaAllah.

counting days

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam atas baginda Rasulullah SAW . alhamdulillah ala kulli hal .

i'm in the middle of my mid term exam fyi laa . hihi . bapak susah kot . its really , i mean very very strenuous should i say ? sedih lg ahzan especially for my physics paper . seriously , arrggghh terrible like shooot . somehow , i can relate why i only have mere a for my physics sbjeck . horl . its really hard . well , in my opinion la but then when i ask smeone else , they find that physics are just fine so , i guess , its just me . heh . its a nightmare to think of how my marks would look like . for now , i'm trying hard to sooth my heart by thnking about going home . yeah , im going home ! hoho . excited . sgt . sgt . like finally , after more than a month , im going to see my family back , my home  and such such . haha .

about exam , yestrday i have 2 papers which were biology and statistics . bio was like , each minute ticked , i was like , gelabah tahap ntah pape  . its like crazy . i wrote with hands like parkinson smthing . dh la mrkh quiz bio rndah gle . i cant imagine what will my average score be . erkkk . as for statistics , the last one hour , my head ached like smthing swirl out my brain through my eyes . my head was spinning that i feel like fainted . i answered those questions in such pain that i barely remember the paper that i took . yg ni pn satu lg . mrkh quiz ngn test mcm ntah pape . sigh . insane much ? such unsanitary is unacceptable .

anyhow , 3 more days and i'm going home . yoohoo . tmorrow would be chemistry  then , research skill and finally logical reasoning and the next day i will be in bus , going back with syerah hfiz and frdaus ? i feel extremely giddy . and its ramadan soon . yeah ! insyaAllah everything would be jst fine . insyaAllah .