holding in there

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam ats baginda . syukur ala kulli hal .

frst and foremost , hmmmphh , let me heave a big sigh . hee . smpuuuttt la . smput dgn assgnment yg x ptus2 anddd smput dgn unending stairs . nk mkn pg kafe , trun tngga . bfore going down , blok 4 tngkat kne redah dlu . belum ap2 dh collapse . haha . anyhow , i'm still breathing and alive . alhamdulillah .

last weekend , i joined PpMO , which stands for permatapintar mathematic olimpiad . and as expected , i got .... nothing . weee . haha . the exam took about 3hours for 3questions . and i got no ruler , which was necessary to do the proving . no ruler , no mood . haha . thus , x buat la . i left it bare and i think i had good sleep for an hour . teruk kn . but its jst inevitable . its not that i dont know at all nk jwb soaln2 tu but then it needs a lot of thinking and i'm exhausted . my eyes wont open that i'm forced to sleep . its kind of unintentional that i sleep . but yeah , it went wth benefits of being empowered and reenergized . hihi . thniah utk mreka yg dpt hnorable mention , bronze , silver and gold .

one thing that i learned from ths PpMO , mathematics is not jst about counting . its not jst about arithmatics . its more . in fact , i jst know about it . jst realized that we are deceived so much that we are not aware of whats true and whts not . ermphh , we are jst too naive . being ignorance of the happenings that keep occuring . i'm terrified actually to know those truth about wht mathematics really is . its actually an odyssey in finding God . and how we dont know about it . insane , huh ? for instance , albert einstein . korang tau x that he's converted to Islam after dscovering smthing about line . there are no strraight lines in life actually . korang boleh bayang x mcm mne ? straight line x wujud . msti rase mcm ak ne melalut kn but then theres smthng about the speaker that cnvince me , he's telling the truth . and going back to einstein , he dscovered that and found the evidence in Quran . and somehow , thts why its not acceptable . try surf mklumat psl einstein and u'll know that he's dead in 1955 but his history are not told ten yers bfore . meaning that his hstory of life is deleted since 1945 . the truth are hidden . bummer kn ? time tu rse mcm ignorant sgt . jahil sgt . sume nk ambik dr phak laen . kn ? wht do u think ? no offence but i'm jst trying to express wht i thnk about wht i jst happen to find out . hee .

p/s : korang tahu x perdana menteri tu penggunaan yg salah . yg betul , menteri perdana . heeee .

tangled

assalamualaikum w.b.t. selawat dan salam atas Rasulullah . alhamdulillah ala kulli hal .

erm2 tday i got my frst assgnment . chemistry . and the nghtmare begins . haha . exaggerating much ? no la . actually , i had 2 classes which are chemstry and biology . sadly ++ pathetically ,  i didnt revise the topics tht're  going to be covered tday beforehand so i'm left confused . in both classes , unfortunately . esp in chemistry class , i was seriously in me dead end . its terrifying snce i could see that i'm the only one who seems to be cnfused and didnt undrstand . then the misery cntnued in bio class . i felt extremely guilty towards madam sham snce she's kind of expcting all of us to do our own pre-revision and apprently , i didnt . once again i became a burden to my peers and lcturer . yela kn . dh ak x phm sorang je so the learning process were knd of dstracted . and i cntributed to that . hee . i feel very sorry to miss suganty and madam sham and the whole class . huu . but anyhow , i'd like to say my gratitude to my lecturers and ai ngn wan yg sudi ajar sy . lps ne , i'm going push myself to the limit and do my own pre-revision . insyaAllah .

after class , my brain were all scattered . i couldnt digest a thing . otak x saturated pn tp berketul2 smpai brain x bleh interpret . mmg pening gle . after zohor , initially , we were going to have tutorial but somehow , all classes were dismissed so , at 2pm , blik kolej . at 3pm , igt nk prgi library tun sri lanang nk cri material buat assgnment  ngn nora dayang and qas but then , what a day . we waited for the bus from 3 to 4++ pm . thats more than an hour . what a waste of time . eventually , we dcided to jst call it off . msk je bilik balik . mmg rase sgt2 rugi mase yg kteorg tnggu bas tu . in an hour , mcm2 bleh buat tau . dah la la bkn hari2 blik awal . biasenye pkul 6 bru balik so mmg rugi sgt . whts more ,  otak mmg serabut sgt mse tu . dgn bio and chem yg nk cover balik .ishh . bas tu memangggg cari pasal . snce kami puasa , mmg rse dhydrated and exhausted way beyond bearable . bilik plk kt tingkat 4 . sedih kan . what a day . still , blessings in dsguise . we never know whts in store for us so , never give up in hope and Him . amin ya rabbal alamin .

 tune to study mode . weee . insyaAllah .