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assalamualaikum wbt . selawat dan salam atas baginda Rasulullah .

lama suda tarak bukak ini page . hee . erm sprisingly busy ths days . i'm so stressed thnking on how my future plan would be . seriously overwhelming . i keep thinking on how i'm going to srvive . fyi , i have mara intrview ths strday . and upu dah tau kt mane . i got asasipintar , ukm . actually , i'm kind of reluctant bcause of few thngs la . too much thngs i have to consider at frst but for now alhamdulillah dah ok . insyaAllah ths 23rd , i would be there . ermm , my aunt ckp , ukm ne duk kat cerok hutan . nk g jln pn g kt sate kajang je . nk msk bndar , bas , trnsport , mmg hampeh . erm dlm hati , biar betol mk ck ak ne . heh . all in all , alhamdulillah . evrythng has its own pro and cons kn so , choose well and leave the rest to Allah .

i got bursary actually but snce ukm is not on the list of institutions that it gives so , i guess , goodbye . kind of upset snce i have the rght utk dpt kn . plk tu , sy dtempatkn kt ukm oleh phak kpt kn so , i got ths x bes feeling  . hehe . mcm x bsyukur je bnyinye . nauzubillah . if God wills it , evrthing would be jst fine . blessing in dsguise , rght ? another cncern , apparently , as far as i know , x dk sape pn tht i know pg kt ukm tu . huuu sdeh gk r . sebek sorang . join abg sebek . haha . the truth is , i'm talk-less when i'm wth smeone tht i dnt know. nk cri btol2 kwn plk bkn cncai2 . i mean if there's smone frm my school who will be there too , atleast bleh jd the eyes and ears kn . tp ble fkir2 , mase ne la nk test jati diri kn . mntak2 semuanya ok dan dpermudahkan . insyaAllah . i checkd mklumat psl kmasukn ke ukm tu . yuran pndftran gile mhal kot . 1K++ jgk la . i mean , syuk ckp klu usim 600++je . dh la nk tgk jgk mara cmane kn . klu dpt mara , kalau la kn , kalau , and terima offer tu , mcm burn je duit kn . ne kalau je . belum tentu dapat dan belum tentu terima .

gd luck guys on your ongoing lives and for those yg kne intrview mara . ganbatte kudasai .

pengikut tegar . hihi

assalamualaikum . salam dan selawat atas rasulullah .
i'd like to share my MARA essay . hihi . gedik melampau .

 Born to be a doctor . I can see that in me and I strongly believe  I am one of them . My name is Tengku Mardhiah Binti Tengku Nazmi , first daughter of Tengku Nazmi Bin Tengku Sulaiman and Nor Akma Binti Mohd Amin . Born in 9th July 1994 . I have 5 other siblings and one of them is a new born . Both my parents are working , my father is a radiographer whereas my mother is a teacher .

  Back then , I received my early education at Sekolah Kebangsaan Tok Jiring and thank God , i got 5As in UPSR . I was actively participating in martial art of Taekwondo at that time that i managed to represent the state of Terengganu . I was nurtured with determination and sense of responsibility all the way through . In 2007 , I continued my study at Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Agama Tok Jiring from form 1 to form 5 . With the support of all the people around me , I got 9As in PMR which then led me to the science stream class . I found this special vibe when learning Biology and this triggered my instinct of becoming a doctor . I tried my very best in balancing my studies and my co-curricular activities . Debate parliamentary style was one of the co-academic activities that I joined and happily said , I learned a lot of things despite missing class . I discovered my inner qualities that I never had the chance to find before . Gratefully said , my self-confidence and self-esteem increased and I improved my general knowledge as much . My position as the vice-president of Ping Pong club and secretary of Girls Scout in my school definitely hone my leadership skill besides many other good quality to be possessed .

  I got 10As 1B (9A+ 1A 1B+) in SPM and that moment I knew that the chance for me to further my study in medicine is bright . I realized  that this was it ! I could still fight for my dream of becoming a doctor . It would be a great pleasure to receive scholarship from MARA to further my study . I plan to study in Ireland as that country is famous for the born of great doctors . In fact , I have an aunt who studied there before and is now has her own clinic . I am inspired mostly by her and not to mention , my father . I want to be specialised in orthopedics because of him since his work involves in that branch . More than that , i enjoy studying about human anatomy . Other than that , I also have the desire to further my study in Jordan . Besides studying medicine , I can also  improve my Arabic language knowledge since I got B for that subject . The main reason of why I’d like to further my study abroad is because I want to get more experience of being out of place at first and adapting myself in it .

  When I get my degree , I will begin with working with the Ministry of Health . When things are going the way it should be , I’d like to further my study to get my Master and then Phd , specializing in orthopedics . My ultimate goal is to help people to live their lives in the healthiest way . I hope that I can be a doctor that grows . Learn new things as each day pass by . Perhaps going to be a lecturer so that I could give  back what  I was given . Instead of growing alone , it would be nice to help other people grow .

p/s : esei ini dbuat in 2 hours thnks to syuk kimah and fizah for the indirect guideline . thnks alot . kalu deadline lmbat lg sumpah x siap lg esei ne . haha

and the steep gets deeper

assalamualaikum . selawat dan salam atas junjungan baginda .

every rose has its thorn
jst like every night has its dawn
jst like every cowboy sing his sad sad song
every rose has its thorn

i hear ths song these days and realize how close it is in my heart . and i cant help but to thnk of how well it rflects lives . ermm i'm jst saying tht everyone's not perfect and never would be so we have to learn how to give and take . hehe .

sabar . a word tht is easy to pronounce but hard to comprehend . you never know the level of patience tht you have until you face wht you cannot handle . and yeah , you never know wht you cnt handle bcause you lose yourself first by then . thts when you act bfore thnking and thus regreting it later . so , sabar sblum buat ap2 . i'm nt the most patient prson out there and i have to tell tht i'm strggling hard in becoming one whch obviously not . hehe . if smthng rage you up , take few deep breath bfore throwing out your opinion . i thnk tht helps alot . ngehehe . i read ths smwhere in book and it says , sabar dalam mencari kelebihan diri . i read ths exactly when i had hard time and wthout doubt , i found solace in it . alhamdulillah , Allah gives His guidance to me at tht time and tenacity is wht i found .

you could grief when rose has thorn or you could rejoice when thorn has rose so , always see the glass half full . whch then leads to a happy life :)